I see in the past position, that it took the force of the world going topsy turvey and upside down, to further connect you to your inner voice. Being stripped of the world. Of daily routine, of having to go to work, or if you are going to work, having that monotony and daily drudgery turned upside down. All of the chaos is making you question everything. Being forced to go within has connected you to your spark, to some greater level of intuition. The blocks there are starting to clear. You might feel naked and exposed, not quite sure what to do with yourself, your intuition, or your gifts yet, but keep surrendering into yourself. Keep your mind open to new perspective. Keep digging for your own internal truth. There’s lots of personal transformation and growth happening within. LOTS!
In the present, I still see a lot of questioning as to how to contribute or use your gifts to help others right now. The hermit reminds you, not to get lazy, don’t stay stuck in rigid patterns of behavior and to pay attention to yourself right now. You may be looking to the future, but keep in mind there may be puzzle pieces still hidden in the present moment, a shadow or wounding that may still be hidden that you’re not seeing that’s holding you back from moving forward from a new emotional foundation. Or you’ve seen the shadow, but haven’t accepted it yet. There’s still some denial and keeping it other than part of you. There’s been maturing within your emotional body that’s being called for and it’s affecting the way you’re approaching life right now. Is there one issue this crisis has been triggering in you? Is it lack mentality? Is it fear and diving into conspiracy theories? Is it an inability to sit still with yourself? To stay in your home? What is being brought to the surface, that you’re not processing through. You may see it, but don’t know what to do with it.
What’s blocking you is seeing this thought, and identifying with it? Seeing the thought and not cutting it off every time it rears its head. You are not your thoughts, feelings or emotions. You are an awareness that’s witnessing everything. Meditation is a really powerful tool to assist you with knowing this statement to be true. The realization that you are not the mind or that you don’t have to attach with thoughts that knock you out of alignment. Out of feeling safe, grateful, ok.
What’s surrounding you is a new beginning. A new relationship to relationship. A new relationship to the self. It’s available.
Give yourself permission to acknowledge this thought process that’s knocking you out of alignment. What I mean is spend 10 minutes with it. Not indulging in the thought, but asking the thought what it is it needs. If your thought revolves around “buying enough supplies”. Ask yourself, what is it I really want? And you may just find that your inner child wants to know it’s going to be ok, that it’s not going to have to rely on others for its needs, that it is feeling scared or insecure. When you realize the base emotions, that are triggering the thought sequence, you tend to short circuit it. You give yourself what you need, and you don’t continue that mental path or thought sequence.
Comfort your inner child, that may be the root of where this is stemming from. Realize this can pass through very quickly and deliver you rebirth. If you keep indulging, you risk being overwhelmed, but in the card now, I see the light is sinking in, overwhelming the darkness, and showing you you can be reborn.