Theme for May is “Befriending Grief”. 5 of Cups
Grief is a very dense, very heavy energy. Grief is not so easily swayed. There’s not a whole lot you can do to shift grief as part of it, is allowing time to heal the loss. With anger, you can exercise the energy down to a manageable level, you can see what boundary was crossed and reset it, or you know what action to take, because Anger makes it highly visible for you to see. With Grief, you’re very often stuck in the past and unable to move forward. The grief process is moving from being ‘present to loss’, to ‘grateful for the time you had’. It is the same process when you lose family or pets or jobs, and in this case it could be the old way of life/living. Grieving jobs you went to, being present with other people and able to touch/hug/kiss, living without fear of illness or death, living without entertainment (amusement parks, live music, fairs) etc. There’s a lot about the way of life that has shifted in the last 2 months. It no longer exists and we don’t know when it’s coming back. This month, May, is now when the shock has mostly wore off, and the reality of the new future is sinking in. There’s a lot to grieve.
Week 1: The energies of the first week of May are showing that this week is about “inspiring possibilities” King of Wands. You may be aware of what about your old life (pre-corona virus) wasn’t working for you. Maybe you hated your job, maybe there were aspects of your relationship that wasn’t working, maybe you had some financial spending habits that weren’t in your best interest. This week is about making the impossible possible. It’s about turning your old way of being (4 of Wands) upside down and rebirthing yourself as the new. Instead of planning on returning to the old job you disliked, maybe this week is to apply for a new kind of job you might like better, or starting your own business. Instead of continuing certain patterns with your romantic partner, maybe sit down to communicate with each other what wasn’t working, and come to a new agreement about how you want things to be, and start being with each other differently than before. What was previously “impossible” is possible this week. There’s a thinning of the veil, that will help you manifest the new that you are visioning. But you need to be aware of what wasn’t working first, then request the new that you’re desiring. This is how you work through some of the grief. Release what was causing you stress and pain and suffering previously to make a new joyful possibility for the future.
Week 2: The Tower Card is similar to Kali energy. She/It comes in and remove things that aren’t working for you in your life. Things you KNOW you should have changed or dealt with, but due to certain attachment or habits, were unable to. Perhaps last week, you saw what needed changing, but weren’t able to take steps in that direction? Now this week, the Tower is in reverse, which means it’s the warning shot across the bow, or the flag signaling this is your WARNING. Make the changes now before the Universe or your guides have to act on your behalf. There’s a pattern you’re unwilling to break, an unwillingness to change. This might be a hard week. The indicator card I pulled was the 5 of Coins with it which represents “Precious Misfortune”. It seems you need help in some area that you’re not asking for. With the theme of the month being Grief. Where are you suffering or grieving and not asking for help? Are you in isolation by yourself only, and really lonely? Are you making efforts to make connections with others? Are you having trouble reaching out? Are you stuck at home, so you’re shopping online an insane amount in an effort to quell your fear and anxiety? Instead of exercising, eating well, speaking to a therapist or mentor? Are you unable to pay your rent or is Covid affecting your small business and you’re having financial difficulties? Are you able to ask friends or family for financial guidance or loans? This is the most delicate and humbling areas to need help for most. The theme of this week, is to look at how you’re emotionally coping and see if there’s a healthier way to shift grief/fear/anxiety, involving ASKING others for help. This part is not to do it alone, but to connect with others for that support.
Week 3: The energies in week three seem to be a carryover or reminiscent of Week 2. A carryover of not letting pride get in the way of you getting your needs met. I think the beginning part of the week has to do with the fire element burning away the residue of week 2. It seems to be though that the (Moon) comes in to cool down the fire element, turning it into steam. The emotions get calmed down some, smoothing out the energy and density of the week before. This shadow (or part you’ve rejected in yourself) of not asking for help and being “the independent one” is being called to be seen, and surrender to your needs. If you were able to ask for help last week, this week will be the energies releasing and new self starting to calm down, be peaceful, and integrate this first step of new being-ness.
Week 4: With the inner conflict and fires starting to quell, the 5 of Wands, reminds you not to revert into old prideful patterns. For short-won victories are not a real victory. If you’re compromising yourself, to get the money you need, or to win the argument that puts a wedge in your relationship you’re not really “winning”. This week is not about action in the world, but with tending to yourself and your inner light. To feel the emotions, you are feeling (if it’s grief) and be with them. Don’t stuff them or try to avoid them but release them. Once you’ve worked through a lot of the layers of sadness, of feeling the losses, then you can start to view those same memories through the eyes of appreciation for those times you had, instead of grieving that you won’t have those times anymore. You start to see the new possibilities for happiness and joy that are present for you now or in the future. This week is ripe for a new future. A new way of feeling and being and living your life.
Summary of the month at a glance
Past 2 of Coins Reversed
In the past, you were isolated and disconnected from your heart and what you truly wanted. You were living a life that wasn’t in alignment with your true self. Your creativity, your passions and your abundance (income) was showing lack, due to poor alignment. You weren’t really happy either, you were just making ends meet or doing it as means to an end. Now you seem to have found yourself more in alignment with who you are and what makes you happy. King of Cups. Maybe not having to go to that job anymore thrills you. Maybe you’re connecting more strongly with your partner or family now that you have the time and ability to. However, what’s still lurking is the “final release” 10 of Swords Reversed. You’re needing to finally release this belief or viewpoint that has been holding you back for far tooooooooo long. (That’s what week 2 is about). You’re perhaps held under by a wound belief (“better off alone”) or societal belief (9-5 jobs are “responsible”). Something of that sort. Some belief that props up your self-confidence in some way, in false pride or arrogance. Some belief that keeps you separate from what it is you’re really truly wanting in your heart. The new job, the new relationship, the new clients, the new friendships, the new abundance. This month a lot of that old is going to burn away and leave you in a much better place, in alignment with following your true self/desires 7 of Cups Reverse.