Today is a numerology 22 day. Today the angels are reminding us, which seems to be the theme of the week to stay BALANCED. HAVE MORE FUN. PLAY! Do what you can to keep working towards and keep uncovering what your divine live purpose is. Connect to what excites you, is fun, lights you up to uncover your soul’s mission for this life. Ganesha comes in to say, Yes! You will uncover what your purpose is! Yes! You will be successful in it. Yes! You will be rewarded by this mission. You may feel in lack now, but when you’re living out your life’s purpose you will receive the abundance you feel you currently lack. Part of that though is not denying yourself the abundance that is currently present. (22 and Yes Ganesha)
I’m feeling in the past, your inner child has been in hiding. She was so challenged and confronted by the harsh realities of the world, she went into an innermost cave to hide. It took a lot of the fun, adventure, and playfulness out of your life. When life is all work and no play, it starts to feel really hard. Really not fun. Make you feel more serious all the time. Everything that does happen to you feels like the scales are always tilting to one side, because there’s no fun to balance it out. Your divine purpose and souls mission is very connected to this inner child. It’s the things she/he found fun, magical, passionate about. That’s where the nugget of soul purpose lies. When you can reconnect to her/him, you will find the clues and the flashlight on what it is you’re here to do. That’s why having fun and play is so important. We need to bring her/him out of hiding, out of the cave. (Page of Wands Reversed and 8 of Wands)
In the present or today, I’m seeing focus on what is good in your life. If there was ever a day to take stock and inventory on what your blessings are, today is the day. I’m seeing that the abundance or goals that you seek, come from being out of balance. The desire wouldn’t be as strong, if you would allow yourself more connection with others, more nature, more play. Be kind to yourself through this, because you’re going to have to reprogram yourself and your values. As the child of a narcist, I’ve been programmed that you must WORK HARD, BE THE BEST, BE RESPONSIBLE. I don’t know that I was taught to value fun, play, balance. Even when I was doing things that were supposed to be “fun” they were a competition. So fun has been a process for me to reconnect to also. Both of my parents tend to be isolating creatures, and don’t spend much time with friends, only their significant others. There’s this pattern I can see as programming into me ‘what is/was witnessed’. Looking within your own programming to see, what did you witness, that makes it difficult for you to have fun, play, balance in your life? Because Ganesha and the Universe says you can have it. The fun, the connection, the security. It’s equally important. It seems you’re denying it to yourself though. You may think it’s the Universe, but it’s not. (10 of Coins Reversed & 6 of Wands Reversed / King of Coins Reversed & 6 of Cups Reversed)
What seems to be blocking you internally, is financial pressures it seems. I would ask, are those pressures real? Or are they created by the mind? Have you decided that 10 hours of work a day is necessary, when it could be done in 6? Is there room in there for the fun and connection you desire and crave? Can you have both? Is it either or? Can you acknowledge that the fun frequency may shift you out of the lack frequency…It may bring you into balance in a way that is other than what you were taught and programmed to believe. (Queen of Cups Reversed)
What’s surrounding you or available to you, is growth. I feel like you’re moving in the right direction and have been for a while. You are slowly planting the seeds of the new self and starting to see some rewards for that. There’s still more work to be done, but change the word ‘work’ to ‘play’ and see how your energy shifts. “Hard worker” is the word that popped into my mind when I saw the 7 of Coins today. Reconnect with your inner child today. Can you go to the beach and build a sandcastle? Can you go to the store and buy yourself a coloring book and markers? Do you like playing in the mud? Can you find an old children’s movie you loved to watch? Reconnect to what you liked to do as a child, or simply take the day off. No work! (7 of Coins)
In the Future position, I see the isolation starting to melt. I see you looking into the future and seeing what love, connection, and financial security it is that your desiring. You see it, you’re getting closer to it. But it will require you to shift your attitude towards money, work, abundance, flow, creativity, growth. Etc. You’re going to have to cut away some old beliefs you have that are no longer serving you. It may be something along the lines of “having to prove your worth” as being the emotion behind all the “hard work”. Pushing yourself too long, too hard, too far, beyond what feels healthy, good and comfortable to you. You are worthy of healthy boundaries. Healthy work. Fun and work. Tip the scales towards fun. It might feel scary, but it’s being supported by the Universe right now. Just give it a try. (Knight of Cups, The Tower Reversed, Ace of Coins, Page of Swords Reversed)
