I looked at the clock and I was pulling the cards at 2:22. Two represents choices, duality, instincts.
In the past position, I see you sitting and carefully cultivating your inner light. Feeding it yourself. Doing things that were more fulfilling to your soul. You pulled it outside of the box you were trapped in (societies ideas of where to work and how to live, and what order to do it in. Etc) You were moving into a new state of self-knowing, self-growth, self-development. There’s time, energy and attention being spent on you.
In the present position, I see a disconnect between the mind and the heart. There’s some mental belief structure that is propping your emotional system together. Something that blocks reciprocity from your life. Maybe an unwillingness to spend money on yourself, or on yourself in certain ways? An unwillingness to move forward towards real love or your heart’s true desire. You’ve cultivated the inner light, but it seems there’s a lack of faith in the Universe matching your newfound vibration.
I get the feeling this is a road you’ve walked down many times. Every previous time, the outcome wasn’t good and let it disappointment and heartbreak. Every time you started you were optimistic, hopeful and feeling this is going to be the time, my time! And now you’re afraid to put in the work to walk down the new road. Not realizing it’s not the old path. You’re preventing taking the first steps. WHAT IS HOLDING YOU BACK? What are you believing? This is the key point of the whole reading.
I see ultimately a positive outcome, this is something you’ll overcome and you’ll get to the new better, shinier, more fulfilling destination, but there’s this on little obstacle you still need to overcome. A belief.