In the past position, I see you’ve short circuited the mind habit or pattern that liked to spin out, go round and round, that took you down a path that never quite worked out for you. For some reason you were persistent with it. Kept trying to force the square peg into the round hole. But I see you’ve done some work to step off that merry-go-round.
I see now you’re taking the first steps in the right direction to bring a different passion project into fruition. There’s a calling for some self-compassion and self-forgiveness for trying to force the old way. Be nice to yourself. We’re all trying to move forward the best way we know how, and with things that “appear” to be the way or the path. Sometimes the detour shows us where we’re not showing up for ourselves. I know for a while I stayed in a job that wasn’t right for me, and making me miserable, but for the outcome of achieving another goal. In that case, I was trying to force the job (square) to work for me, but it wasn’t. Another friend was staying in a relationship, trying to “make it work” because of the length of time they’d been together, because they had a kid together and because (Fill in the blank). When I asked her if she was truly happy, the answer was no, she was “trying to make it work”. Long story short, that old passion project, just wasn’t your path the new one is or is heading in a better direction.
What’s blocking you is not asking for advice from your friends, not having a mentor to guide your way, or not listening to your intuition. It’s not investigating within the self, “Am I really happy? Am I just trying to make this work?” Is this job/relationship abusive? Or the question I prefer now is, “Is this thing in alignment with me?”
With this new project you’re about to start or have started I see it will bring you more emotional fulfillment than the other path would have. It will connect you to your intuition stronger and be more creatively fulfilling. There will be more joy, playfulness, and hidden treasures (things you don’t expect will make you happy) but will.
I also see that the block might also be what’s preventing a moving forward. There’s a relationship or partnership connected to this new passion project that is going to help your success, although I don’t feel you’ve met this person or connected with them yet.
Be kind to yourself today, and keep making steps in the directions of your new dreams.